Naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob

I learned of a very important lesson last week. Never to mess up with my hair if I'm having the worst day ever. I regretted having my hair cut!! It looks awful. : ( Kung pwede lang pumatay ng parlorista!! Ever since, buhok ko na lage ang shock absorber ko sa mga bad trips ko. Pero this is the worst!! Kaya I learned never to mess up with my hair ever again. Do you want a description? Ganito yun. I asked him to cut my hair in a nice bob style fashion with side bangs. Simple lang diba? Ewan ko kung excited ata yung bakla to go out with his date o imbyerna siya kasi wala siyang date kaya hindi niya naintindihan ang request ko. He made it into ala Vicky Beckham look. Kahit uso yung style na yun last year(?) hindi bagay saken. I don't go with the trend if it doesn't fit me. Anyway, I asked him if he could redo it. Redo it he did talaga!! straight cut kaso hindi pantay ang pagkagawa. The left part is longer than the right side. My bangs are so short! Nagmistulang baby hair. Ngrr. Please don't imagine it nalang. Hindi naman ako maldita when it comes to my parlorista kasi for sure I'll be caught dead with a very ugly hair! But why?!! huhuhu. You may find it so trivial for me to act like this but try fitting into my shoes and you'll know. Sige, hybernate muna ako.

I'm tired of flirting.
Tired of being taken for granted.
Of being rejected and of not looked at for the second time.
Tired of waiting for Mr. Right to come when at the back of my mind I had already lost the enthusiasm to wait for his coming.
I'm tired of too many Trials and Errors, of Comes and Gones.
This you gotta hear, I'm tired of saying I loathe commitment when the truth is it is just a defense when I feel that the guy will end up hurting me anyway.
Love is a risk. Cliche.
Yet, I haven't risked anything.
Always on the safe side.
I cannot say though that I'm tired of playing it safe because it's the only weapon i have,
will I simply give it up?
But yes, I am tired of being single. It really gets to you especially when you have to exhaustively come up with excuses as to why you are.
I'm just simply tired of having to settle for the short end of the stick.

Thank You

Thank you to JENNY,ELAINE,GIAN CARLA , MARGARITA and The English Club for your beautiful letters. I'm touched! ;D

A. Bella

I saw him kanina and was able to talk to him briefly. Tungkol sa bloopers ko sa communion. hehe! kasi hindi ko nakita yung lay minister na nasa harapan ko na. haha! well. at least nag enjoy naman daw ako. My Mood: ecstatic!! hay ;D

A. Bella

magkakaboypren na ako bukas! kung hindi bukas the day after tomorrow! promise! hehehe. just thinking positively. ;D well. I just realized that I am not getting younger and continuing being a commitment phobe just doesn't solve it. I admit it. OO naiinggit ako sa mga mag syotang nakikita ko (especially now that Feb 14 is nearing)! I am also human. Much more a woman, busy as my schedule is, I would still want to come home to my man and we'd talk. Someone who'd give a damn about my ambitions and all things in between. It all boils down to my question of "Who am I going to end this cycle with?" As I am writing down, I am thinking of only this one guy. He's my office mate. Sheepish as it sounds, he's my crush. (I'm only 22 and still entitled to crushes) Anyway, I have this "ambition"of becoming his gf. haha!! However, i think he already has one. Sad. Nasaan ba ako nung naghahanap ng gf ang mga tao?? So, I have forcedfully decided of admiring him from afar. I am only capable of subtle flirting so how he would subtly "get" the idea. I DO NOT KNOW!!!! baka nga hindi pa niya alam pangalan ko. Good luck to me. Till next blogging..

MY Wish List

I don't usually come up with a written wish list over the past years since first, I am a spontaneous person. I may want it so badly today, tomorrow it is as if I never craved for it. Second, well I never really expected anybody (much more my mama) to buy me these stuff. It is a wish list so you might as well wish big. LOL :D Third, I never really needed it during my college years. I had Nokia 3100 all throughout my college years and never did I complain nor be envious of other people buying new phones every second. My point? My mama and papa taught us that if we wanted to have a new stuff we have to work hard for it. All they will provide us are our basic needs. Good thing that we understood and never really much complained-just some occasional gasping to let them get the hint-they never did nor did they really entertain it. Now that I am working I realized the value of what they taught us. Since you want it so bad, work hard for it so that you would appreciate its value in the end. That's when I decided to come up with a written wish list. It'll serve as my guide to what I would want to do and have this new year.

My Christmas Wish List:
1. Pimp my room
*bed sheets,curtain,study table, trinkets and a lot more!
2. Laptop
*I need it for my work.
3. Smile shutter Digicam. LOL
*I guess I have to sell my old digicam to buy this one.
4. Iphone
*For now, this is really a wish. hehehe! ;D
5.Hyundai Getz
*Car loan? hehehe. ;D



Merry Christmas everyone! :D

I am sorry I was not there when you were..

I accept it, he's gone.
My good friend journeyed ahead.
Too young at twenty two but it was his time.
His deed here is done.
At twenty two he had accomplished so much.
Not money, not fame but outright goodness.

He had always been an angel-now forever one.
I will miss him and i loved him dearly.
I accept that he is gone, just give me time to mourn.
I will miss you PRE.
I'm sorry i did not give you my best gift of all-TIME.
Mapan kan idiay rumbeng nga papanam.