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Sunday, December 21, 2008

MY Wish List

I don't usually come up with a written wish list over the past years since first, I am a spontaneous person. I may want it so badly today, tomorrow it is as if I never craved for it. Second, well I never really expected anybody (much more my mama) to buy me these stuff. It is a wish list so you might as well wish big. LOL :D Third, I never really needed it during my college years. I had Nokia 3100 all throughout my college years and never did I complain nor be envious of other people buying new phones every second. My point? My mama and papa taught us that if we wanted to have a new stuff we have to work hard for it. All they will provide us are our basic needs. Good thing that we understood and never really much complained-just some occasional gasping to let them get the hint-they never did nor did they really entertain it. Now that I am working I realized the value of what they taught us. Since you want it so bad, work hard for it so that you would appreciate its value in the end. That's when I decided to come up with a written wish list. It'll serve as my guide to what I would want to do and have this new year.

My Christmas Wish List:
1. Pimp my room
*bed sheets,curtain,study table, trinkets and a lot more!
2. Laptop
*I need it for my work.
3. Smile shutter Digicam. LOL
*I guess I have to sell my old digicam to buy this one.
4. Iphone
*For now, this is really a wish. hehehe! ;D
5.Hyundai Getz
*Car loan? hehehe. ;D



Merry Christmas everyone! :D

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I am sorry I was not there when you were..

I accept it, he's gone.
My good friend journeyed ahead.
Too young at twenty two but it was his time.
His deed here is done.
At twenty two he had accomplished so much.
Not money, not fame but outright goodness.

He had always been an angel-now forever one.
I will miss him and i loved him dearly.
I accept that he is gone, just give me time to mourn.
I will miss you PRE.
I'm sorry i did not give you my best gift of all-TIME.
Mapan kan idiay rumbeng nga papanam.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Brain Dominance

Last weekend, I took a brain dominance exam to figure out what part of my brain is,of course, dominant although I have always believed my left part is superior than my right part. The result was a balance between the two. Below are the questions and my answers plus the results:


Brain dominance
Which side of your brain is dominant?
Find a piece of paper and note the characteristics which apply to you.Then look at the answer key and check to see which characteristics are left brain (L) and which right brain (R).Sum them up and discover whether you are left brain or right brain dominant.

1. I am usually late for my appointments. -Yes
2. I make gestures with my hands when I talk.-Yes
3. I usually guess the time correctly.-No
4. I like to read the instructions when I buy something new.-No
5. I work better when I listen to my favorite music or radio station.-Yes
6. I find it easier to remember names instead of faces.-No
7. When someone asks me a question I turn my head to the left.-No
8. I like to set goals for myself and organize my time.-No
9. I often catch myself day dreaming.-Yes
10. I try to solve problems by relating them to ones that I have had before.-No
11. I pay attention to what is being said rather than how it is said.-Yes
12. I analyze the pros and cons when making an important decision.-No
13. A messy desk is a sign of genius.-YES
14. When I have many things to do I begin with the easy ones.-Yes



Answer key:
1. R
2. R
3. L
4. L
5. R
6. L
7. R
8. L
9. R
10. R
11. L
12. L
13. R
14. L

Left brain individuals are analytical, articulate and to the point. They like identifying details and are more logical than intuitive. Left brained people have good communication and persuasion skills.
Right brain individuals are intuitive, creative and imaginative. They are flexible and are concerned with the bigger picture rather than details. They are impulsive and spontaneous and do not like time limits. They have difficulty explaining ideas verbally and prefer illustrations to verbal instructions.

Amazing! I didn't expect it would be a balance. Looking at the explanation above, I agree. I am articulate. I prefer speaking to writing. My verbal communication skills are more enhanced since I have always been exposed to that kind of environment rather than writing. On the other hand, the attributes I have on the right part of my brain is my spontaneity and seeing the bigger picture that I fail to see the details in between and yes I DO NOT LIKE LIMITS, admittedly.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

The Relativity of Bukas

Sikat na si Pepe. Nuong araw lang siya ay palaboy sa kalye. Naglalako ng yosi, candy at chicharon. Kinakailangan niyang maglako. Para may pambili siya ng iPod Touch. Maraming pangarap sa buhay si Pepe. Umaga palang, habang umiinom ng kape, gumagana na utak niya sa mga bagay bagay na pupwedeng pagkakitaan ng pera. Kung papano maging income generating ang kanyang kariton at tsinelas. Human labor. Diyan tumatakbo ang buhay (at survival) ng ekonomiya ng mga bansang nasa Third World. Di bale ng wala ni isang kaluluwa ang maiwan sa Pinas basta may maipadala lang na remittances. Di bale na ring kinakalawang na ang mga hospital na mukha ng ghost town basta makalipad lang papuntang Tate o Europa para hugasan ang mga puwitan ng mga banyaga. Di bale ng hindi na makatikim ng mga masasarap na pagkain basta mapagsilbihan lang ang mga customers sa mga nagpipitagang hotel and restaurants sa ibang bansa. Nung una, DH at Factory Workers hanggang sa Nurses, Doctors,Engineers,Mga Guro,at ngayon pati na rin mga Chefs at Restaurateurs. Lahat na ng sector ng Pilipinas ay unti-unti ng lumilisan patungo sa maling paraiso. Saan na pupulitin si Pepe? Sino ng papalakpak sa kanya ngayong sikat na siya? Makatarungan pa ba ang unti unting paglisan ng mga sector ng Pilipinas? Habang kayo ay nagpapakasasa (o nagkakandakuba kuba) sa perang natatanggap niyo sino pang mag aaruga sa mga naiwan niyong kadugo dito? ang magtuturo ng mga tamang asal at edukasyon na makakatulong sana sa pag unlad ng makabagong henerasyon na lulong na sa teknolohiya. Para saan pa ang kasikatan ni Pepe kung wala na siyang audience, nauna ng pumunta ng airport para habulin ang kanilang flight. Bakit hindi mo pakinggan muna ang saloobin ni Pepe, ang kanyang mga ideya sa ikauunlad ng Pinas at hayaan ipakilala niya kung sino siya. Umupo ka muna, makinig at ipagpabukas ang pagpunta sa ibang bansa... malay natin malaman mong mas maganda parin dito kesa sa ano mang parte ng mundo.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

My Stand On Religion

No Ma'am, I am not religious. I don't go to mass often. I don't even pray the rosary nor recite the Lord's Prayer. But, i believe in Him. I believe that He is there and, foremost, I believe that I have a personal relationship with him. A relationship that need not be known nor shown to people. It will defeat the whole purpose of religion. I am neither an atheist nor a fanatic. I am a believer. I am neither a practicing Catholic nor a non-practicing one. I just simply see it the other way, that religion, unlike politics, is not a public affair. For centuries, people have been judged by their faith. Jews were persecuted just for the mere belief of one man that they are of inferior race. How pathetic. That one man's insecurity will lead to a loss of millions of lives. My point? We each have our own differences and practising your faith in contrast with the other does not make you a lesser human being.It just manifests your choice on how to give reverence to the Almighty. The greatest Being of all.

Santa Ana Lovin






The place is called Anguib Island at Santa Ana, Cagayan Valley. It can be reached via land (roughly an hour) or by sea (via jet ski, yacht or boat). I posted pics of the place itself for those who are interested to visit our sites up north. Santa Ana has hotels that cater to both foreign and local tourists. It is run by the Cagayan Economic Zone Authority. We stayed at Sun City suites. It has cottages that are beautifully designed you'd want to live there forever (no kidding!).
Cagayan Valley is in Region 2 btw. Its capital is Tuguegarao City. Via bus (Florida Terminal @ Earnshaw Blvd or Cubao), it will take you about 10 hours. The choices of a bus ranges from Deluxe,Super Deluxe to Sleeper Bus. Both Super Deluxe and Sleeper Bus do not have stop overs so that'll save you about an hour travel time. Another option would be that of airplane. It will only take you 45 minutes. We have Cebu Pacific and Air Philippines flights here. You can also try road tripping to make the journey more fun. If you have any questions regarding the place, please leave a comment.

Anyway. It was our first time to visit Anguib and it was breath taking! It makes me proud of what we have here up north. Since the tendency is for tourists to visit the South, our sceneries back here are not visited much. Beauty untouched and undiscovered. You see Mother Nature's innocence. Hope to see you soon. Welcome to our Paradise....

Friday, November 14, 2008

A Fitting Tribute to My Coffee

I found my freedom with My Coffee.
Freedom bound with limitations,
but freedom still.

It was getting so addictive,
so wanting;
that it started me thinking..
to think of an escape from thiis
blissful addiction.

A year passed and it left me sober;
sober from My Coffee,
yet wanting for that "high" i used to feel.
It made me realize that
i long for My Coffee.

The Spirit of Freedom

and breathe...just breathe. when are we really free? when we feel "high" inside out? when we try new things? or when we stop and look for the uniqueness in every individual, that in understanding them we are free? Perhaps,the more pressing query is what is your concept of freedom? flying? laughing out loud or being happy with who you are? For me, my concept of it is to understand that freedom is not absolute. It is bounded by limitations that may be written by the law or laid down by your own rational mind. Even with the presence of restrictions and stringent rules, when you understand the whole "meaning" behind it. For what is a curfew given to a teenager, for what are the reminders of parents. In understanding the purpose of one's actions, one is free. Another concept is that of relativity, of ideas, convictions and principles. I may differ from the other. I will strongly disagree with one's idea. Still, it is his being relative and freedom to express it that makes him human. Fully human, fully alive. Although, i am open for my distaste for hypocrisy. For pretentions. But, ironically, i admit to being a hypocrite. For not wanting to face my demons. For not taking the risk I should have done a year ago. I also admit to being pretentious. Pretending of things that normally would bother an ordinary person. Not to say, of course, that i am not ordinary. It is just that, I am open and frank with my dealings but hostile just the same in expressing how i truly feel. I repeat , time and again, I am understood by only a select few. Finally, let me just ask you, are you free?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

LFC


Our friendship is not found in any drug. Pano kami ang manufacturer! hehehe. Meet our godmother a.k.a INANG.
Siya ang apo ni Al Capone, Adolf Hitler at Marilyn Monroe. Deadly Combination. Others call her Ria, I call her Inang and Karen calls her Mommy. 23 palang siya pero she acted as our mentor kasi nung college. We followed her path (to stardom?) kaya we are where we are today, sa bahay. We met at LFC. Yung tambayan na ang membership ay exclusive pero hindi kami frat. ayaw namin yun. corny. We promote Peace. sumasama kami sa mga pulis mag patrol kapag gabi. Huwag mo ng tanungin meaning ng LFC. mahirap isfelingin. Basta, dating doon. Yun ang kumalinga sa mga mura naming mga utak at tamad pumasok na katawan. Unconditional Love. dahil kahit ganun kami nun, bukas ang pintuan ng LFC para sa amin. Pwera lang kung naubusan ng gamot sa utak si Helen ayun gera na. Sino si Helen? siya ang perfect example ng CONSERVE ENERGY. Pagka order namin ng litro ng Pepsi, otomatik na ding naka switch on ang ceiling fan. Sarap ng ihip ng hangin, nakakapawi ng tumatagatak na pawis dulot ng balot na uniform. Ahhh....teka, anong nangyari? bakit naka off na yung ceiling fan? Ubos na ang Pepsi. Ganun nga, ganun kabilis ang kamay ni Helen para i off ang ceiling fan-pagkabuhos ng huling patak ng Pepsi siya ring hudyat ng pagka off ng aming ceiling fan. Buhay nga naman. Kapag binagalan naman namin ang aming pag inom ng Pepsi, may memo galing kay Helen. " Bilisan niyo sa Pepsi, kelangan ko yung bote". Walang kawala kay Helen the daga. hehehe! ayun, imbento ko lang yung daga. Anong ginagawa namin sa mga oras namin sa LFC? actually, napaka productive namin. Merong gumagawa (o nagkakat-ta) ng assignment sa major niya, deadline na nasa intro palang siya. Meron namang umiiyak, nag break na daw sila after 2 years. Yung isa naman, nanliligaw at umaasang may matatawag na siyang honey kinaumagahan. At sa kabilang dako, may gambling na nagaganap. SHIFT POINT. mamiso ang taya.. sali ka? calculator lang kelangan. Mukhang bistado niyo na mga naglalaro. Sino ba lageng nagdadala ng calculator? hehe. Kahit ganun kami nuon, masaya ang buhay namin lalo na kapag Foundation Days at Valentine's Day. Yan ang mga pista ng LFC. Kung may oktoberfest ang ibang bansa, eto ang beerfest namin. Dito namin nagagamit ang skills namin sa patintero. Nakikipag patintero kami sa mamang guard para makapasok sa gate. VICTORY! nakapasok kami. Wag ka nang maingay.. umpisa na ng battle of the bands.Kami lang dapat maingay. bakit, lasing ka ba?

Monday, November 10, 2008

Siksik, Liglig at Umaapaw


Last summer, while I was applying (and waiting) for a job at various companies at habang sumasaydlayn ng pagtitinda ng bote't diyaryo, we had a tradition. We called it TUESDAYS.
My friends and I got together every Tuesday( obviously). No need for texts, basta asahan mo yan by 3pm parating na silang lahat. The venue was at our place. Complete attendance pare. Simula pa nung college kami, uso na ang ambagan. Pepsi? ambagan. Yosi? ambagan. pati spout! hehehe.(sumalangit nawa ang kaluluwa ni Helen). So, yun nga mabalik tayo sa kwento ko. Kapag andiyan na yan, otomatik isang kaha ng Red Horse kaagad para may paunang sipa. ang pulutan mapa kornik (kapag tagtuyot sa pera) o mapa liempo (kapag bumabagyo ng pera).
Meet our tanggera:













Yan si ate Shey. ang pinaka the best na tanggera aside from Tina ang pinaka matibay na tanggera sa lahat. haha! Siyempre, lageng present yan si ate shey. At habang palalim ng palalim ang inuman, pataas din ng pataas ang tagay niya. siyempre, wala kaming karapatang mangwestiyon. Siya tanggera eh! Drinking is an art at hindi basta basta ang science of tagay. Pinag aaralan talaga yan ng ilang taon. Kung di mo na naitatanong may doctorate na sa tagayan si ate shey. Someday, ako din. hehehe! Moving on, (kelangan talaga ng mga transitions para kunwari marunong ako sa English)
Meet ang aming tagabili ng pulutan:

yan si Dan John, siyempre best friends sila ng tanggera namin para masarap timpla ng inuman. May secret ingredient ang mga pulutan. OO tama ka, pulutan is an art. Si dan john juris pulutan na ang degree niyan (sa mga di uminom, it means isa na siyang ekspert). Alam na niya ang timpla at panlasa ng bawat barkada. Kung may isang lalake man na nakakakilala saken (sa totoong ako) si Dan John yun. Kumbaga, siya ang best boy friend ko (baliktad ata?) ang kaso di ako naniniwala sa pagkakaroon na best friend kaya PAR nalang. Alam na niya likom ng bituka namin ni Karen at ganun din sa kanya. Naiyak nga ako nung sabi niya," I'm happy I have with me two of the best ladies of my life", nung bday niya yan. Sniff sniff! Anyway, pakibatukan nga ako kung saan saan nanaman ako napadpad.
Eto naman, meet Ms. Matinik a.k.a Walking Sex Appeal:
Eto si ate Milen. ang babaeng konpyusd pero babae pa din. hehehe! Forever a student at super tahimik na tao pero tunay na kaibigan to the bones. Lage din siyang present sa Tuesdays namin. Kaya siya walking sex appeal kasi kahit di nagsasalita ang lakas ng dating. ehem tested and proven. Siya ang OIC tanggera kapag absent si ate shey. Naka masters na din kasi.






Pagpatak ng mga alas singko, ubos na ang isang kaha. Waiter! este Kuya isa pang kaha. Ayan, may amats na. ngingisi lang yung iba, habang meron nang humahagalpak sa tawa. Mga laman ng kwentuhan tungkol sa buhay buhay. Kung anong gusto namin sa buhay. Sabi nung isa,matulog. I agree! dapat siya nalang ang gawing bayani ng pinas. Ang lalim ng pangarap niya sa buhay. Teka ha itagay ko muna, ang lalamunan ko'y uhaw na. Haba kasi ng kwento eh. Glok glok. hrrmm...
Ok, sige eto na ako ulit. Saan na ba tayo? ahh oo yung sa kwentuhan. Well, sa totoo lang di naman puro tawanan ang nangyayari kapag Tuesdays, meron ding drama at action. Nagkakaroon ng drama at action kapag ang mga batas na aming sinusunod ay nababayoleyt. Pero, minimal at under control 'ika nga. Kasi naman, basta lablayp na ang usapan ayan at pang FPJ at Judy ann na ang kwento o mas matindi pa. Takte! teka, naubusan daw ng para sa pangatlong kaha. Alas nwebe na, bilis noh? update: wala pang lupasay samin. Mga tambay sa bilyar nagtataka na sa lakas ng resistensya namin sa alak. Kanina pa pala sila nag aabang ng may matutumba. Good observers daw talaga ang mga tambay. In short, miron. Sa kabilang dako ng mundo, nagawan na namin ng paraan yung pangatlong kaha. May ice naman pala. Kinabahan ako dun, nagpalpitate ako ng husto. Buti nalang...andiyan si batman. So, papano? wala pakong balak tapusin tong kwento. Tagay ko na raw eh. Sa susunod na martes ulit.
BTW eto na, ang BARKADA: (actually, kulang pa)





















What A 'Git.









I'm loving the weather! the only downside is, nakakatamad. hehehe! Okay, an update with my life this past week. We had a seminar on E-Learning which got me hyped in creating a multiply site for my students-handouts,etc.-. I figured since I have my own connection at home why not take advantage of it and post hand outs for easier access. "At nang hindi puro Friendster inaatupag mo", quoted from the great inang. hehehe! Anyway,'nuff said on E-Learning. My weekend was a mixture of hyperactivity! What a 'git. LOL. (in short,tamad akong mag blog ngayon. hahaha)

Set It Off Like Napalm

I'm missing someone.. it was a short stay, but a stay nevertheless. Too busy (or, in his words beecee) to text or call him paano pagod na pag uwi ng bahay. I MISSED HIM. yun lang... tagal naman niya mag reply. hmmm....

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Let me walk in my own pace..i'll catch up when i'm ready.




I was able to search this via Google and I have to agree with the author. Our generation is so caught up and limited to two poles-one night stands and serious relationships-that we have forgotten of the middle ground which is casual dating. The kind wherein you go out, have fun and hang out but no commitment is given. You are given the chance and the choice to assess the situation while getting to know the person more through his company. Of course, it has to be communicated to the other person, so as not to be unfair, at the onset of the dating stage that that is your intention. I am twisted, different and complex. I am only understood by a certain few, i wish to be one of the crowd..to accept commitment as it is but I can't. Hindi ko kaya.. i am so used to my independence that I cannot (rather refuse) to adust to changes in my life. It is unfair. I am unfair. However, i cannot pretend to be who I am not. I was never ready and I am not ready now. I'm sorry...



OPINION
What ever happened to casual dating?
By Daniel Zauber Guest Columnist

Published: Tuesday, October 15th, 2002
Remember when dating used to be fun? Yeah, me neither. Dating for our generation has lost its appeal because it is difficult for dates these days to be casual. A short-lived commitment, a casual date was a time-honored tradition of courtship which provided social codes for guy-girl interactions. Without such codes, definitions of boy-girl liaisons today are ill-defined and dating as a result has become perplexing and misunderstood. Casual dating is tremendously valuable for a healthy dating climate and by understanding its benefits, perhaps our generation can reconstitute it appropriately for today's mores.
A casual date is an evening, a meal, or a get-together of some kind in which there is no expectation of further commitment on either side. Although one side may desire a further relationship, it is understood that both parties are free to sample the company of each other and are as equally free to terminate any sense of relationship as well. With casual dating boundaries and expectations are defined and understood by both parties. Kissing on the first date is perhaps the only boundary open to interpretation.
Today not enough guys understand casual dating because they do not allow dates to remain casual. Guys do not permit casual dating because they presumptuously assume they have landed a girlfriend if a girl agrees once to a date. Predictably, girls become reluctant to accept dates because they do not think they will be able to remove themselves from a guy's fancy if things do not work out. Understandably, this drastically curtails dating because girls may find it easier to politely decline rather than put themselves in a potentially sticky situation.
Besides regulating expectations for first dates, casual dating is doubly great because it gets people out. Like AOL Instant Messenger, casual dating benefits by a principle of Network Externalities: Not only do you benefit by being on the network, but everyone else on the network benefits by being able to access you too. In this manner, one date spurs other dates as guys and girls intermingle at restaurants, movies and shows and become acquainted with new social circles through their one-evening companions.
One must admit that the 'Street' attracts only a certain social slice of the University and because many fine singles do not go to the Street, they are not linked into the dating network. As a result, our dating pools are too often restricted to our residential college or eating club, thus hindering the healthy cross-fertilization on which casual dating thrives.
Our generation is apprehensive about casual dates because the downsides of bad dates are more popularized than the benefits of being on the dating network in general. We should admit that although a few casual dates will end sour, we all benefit by dating and being connected to the dating network. We've all had awful precepts and preceptors occasionally, but on the aggregate we benefit by going to precept. And yes, some of us have even ended up dating our preceptor.
To reinvent casual dating, I advocate the double date to be the catalyst. Double dating makes dates less formal and less awkward if the evening turns unpleasant. For those who do not wish to partake in 'Street' life, double dating will get them out instead of languishly IMing in their dorm rooms late into the night. Double dating with friends already in a steady relationship is also great because it allows you to see your attached-at-the-hip friends who have inevitably vanished into "couplehood" and tend to neglect their old friends.
Relationships today are too polarized between one-night stands and attached-at-the-hip couples. I yearn for a middle ground where casual dating is the norm and guys and girls can interact intimately without an assumption of commitment. Although I admit casual dating is not as needed today as decades ago, we should admit that today's dating scene is frustrating and at times depressing. Dating for us will certainly not be as extensive as our parents' generation but it doesn't mean we can't improve the current climate.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

GOOD FOOD+GOOD COMPANY and one hell of a TRIP.

Just got back from my second day from school, Obligations and Contracts. we tackled articles 1156-1159 of the Civil Code. Petiks muna, first day eh, pero our professor already gave us articles to read. ayan na! umpisa na..hay! buhay law school. pressure mounting but addictive. After my class, we went to eat out @ Crown's. yung bagong bukas na resto sa may Ugac Highway, the food was heavenly! it was so good!! Plus i was with my friends and ehem, hehe. complete meal from rice meals to dessert, or should i say agawan ng dessert. lol! : D my order was a slice of blueberry cheesecake, tiramisu yung isa and sans rival. Imagine, four people sharing(or rather,unahan) sa sans rival. It was fun. so childish to think the resto was plush but who cares? good food + good people = perfect recipe. We thought the night would end there but lo and behold while ate carol was maneuvering, we saw Pepe Smith walking along the roadside. Nung una, we just rolled down our windows and yelled " IDOL!" then we figured why not ask for a picture with him, he's a legend for crying out loud! SO, we went looking for him. Where else? Traffic Jam, of course. The man is so tall. Of course, no gushing or blushing here folks, we just asked for a picture with him and off we go (with smile on our faces!). We were shy at first but what the heck! One time lang. LOL! It is a good night... ; D

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Back to Pressure- I missed it!

So, finally here's one that is actually talking to you, not some poem I had written or what-have-yous. Honestly, I already created an account about 3 months ago under a different user name. It would have been wise for me to use that instead of having to create a new account again and go through the whole process. Sadly, I forgot my password. (What's new?)

Anyways, it's All Saints Day today yet I took the day to rest instead of going home to Baggao and visit my loved ones in the cemetery. I have a very hectic schedule. I work as a college instructor at the same time studying law, so i hope you could imagine how hectic my schedule can be especially during those days where i have to fly from St. Louie to CCT since i only have 15 mins before my law class starts. Whew! believe me it's such a nice feeling when I arrive and my professor is not yet in. Euphoric! Thank Goodness, I was able to survive my First Semester with not much "me being late" episodes. I just don't know about the grades,though. No results yet. My fingers are crossed. I hope I made it. College of Law is entirely different from college, the pressure is doubled and it is aptly described "sink or swim" that at times I entertain the thoughts of quitting yet at the back of my mind, I live for the pressure. I feel incomplete without it. It is,as if, the only thing that I am sure of and has control over.

Come Monday ( 03 Nov), another semester, another endeavor.
Wish me luck!

Old Poem (Untitled)

This is an old poem (if you can consider it one) that i wrote last year or was it just a few months back? anyway, it doesn't matter. some of it still reflects my current mood although the person is long dead figuratively. hahaha! i know better than to stick around. refer to my other blog: commitment phobe for details on that topic. please do leave comments. thanks! so, here goes:

I'm broke.
My pride crushed.
Wounded.
I lay here,drunk,
not wanting to feel the pain.
The loss.
Tomorrow,
another day to get drunk,
another day to forget.
This is what love does.
Cruel.

I am fine,physically.
Breathing.
Eating.
Sleeping.
Yet, something's amiss.
That fucking cycle called
LOVELIFE.
Whoever invented that shit
ought to be killed a million times over.

Love is a risk,
love is beautiful,
he will come in due time.
Blah blah.
All trash.
At the end of the day,
in spite of the risk you took--
you are left hanging.
You're left dead.
Not knowing how to
resuscitate yourself from
the grave you just buried
yourself into.

Ironically, when you somehow
figure something out on
how to move on--
a certain someone comes along.
What do you know?
You end up being buried again
in a fresh and newly dug grave.
And so it begins....

A tribute to the souls


it pains me to refer to my Papa as a soul. He never was and will never be just a soul. He was more than a human being, he was a father. my father. he lived his life unsurpassed by any other politician there is. he gave his all. he died penniless, compared to those of today. i used to understand his principles. public service. yet, i am ashamed to admit, as years passed i started to drift away from it. i understood but i disagreed. because i saw the effects of giving too much of yourself to people, they will eat you alive. they will leave you with nothing, more of the emotional aspect rather than monetary. never will they dare look back to that old man who helped them. is it worthit? ARE THEY WORTHIT? NO!! they never were nor will they ever be. all he ever wanted from them were conversations, talk of the old times. yet, they rejected him and ridiculed him even. calling him a senile. again, ARE THEY WORTHIT? they never were and they never will be. it is quite ironic, it's been 7 years since Papa's death. you never heard anything from us. i know, a response a little too late. Yet, i want to talk. just a simple tribute to the wisdom of a man who gave his all yet never expected anything back. i understand but still i disagree.. i love you papa. Regards to Tito Laring, Tito Jesus, Lola Juanita,Manong Dondie, Manang Ollie, Tita Flora, Tito Inting,Lola Santang and everyone else..

Friday, October 31, 2008

Buhay ng estudyante

tatayo nanaman ang mga tamad para magbanat ng buto,pilit gigising sa liwanag na hiwatig ng panibagong yugto. bago ang lapis at papel ngunit pagkatao'y naiwang himbing sa pagtulog. hindi parin dilat sa katotohanan ng umagang walang kasiguruhan. ayaw paring tanggapin ang nakaraa'y limot na. mga pangyayari ay tapos na at wala ng babalikan pa. babangon sa umaga na balot ng problema at sitwasyon, mga sitwasyong kelangan ng madaliang solusyon at mabibigat na desisyon na siyang huhulma o sisira sa mga pangarap. ano nga ba ang pangarap mo? yan ang tanong mo sa sarili mo.. meron nga ba? o sumusunod ka lang sa mga idinidikta ng mga puno at ng hangin sa paligid mo? saan ka pupulutin? alam nila kung saan sila patutungo, ikaw alam mo ba? mahirap maging matanda, ngunit mas mahirap tumanda ng walang direksyon. tama na ang pangongopya, pati pangalan ng katabi mo naisulat mo na. ikaw ba siya? yan ang isipin mo, kaibigan mo man siya, hindi ikaw siya. mag desisyon ka. saan mo ba talaga gustong pulutin? sa isang karerang masaya ka o sa karerang tinahak mo dahil sa dikta ng mga puno at hangin sa paligid mo?

hindi pa huli ang lahat.tara, mag kape muna tayo

Commitment Phobe

two opposite poles meet. will they attract? Science and experience tells us they definitely will but i dare say there are always exemptions to the rule including this one. Same is true for people who are afraid of commitment. Never daring to move out from their comfort zones in spite of meeting interesting people who live outside their box. they are afraid of taking risks lest they be ridiculed for what they had done. yet, no wrong was committed. it was just the natural stride of things. the natural tendency of human beings to interact. but still, the best that the commitment phobies had done was to reach out their hands from their zones. never daring to get out of it nor show their faces... how ironic!